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I almost forgot, I promised a picture of the new hair cut! Okay so maybe the picture isn’t just of the new hair but I really like it. We’re total dorks I know, but who doesn’t want to walk like a hieroglyph at the MET?
So I’ve technically been home since the 21st, but I’ve been super busy and haven’t really had much time to do anything. I’m at school all the time, part of the problem is that there is a metric shit ton of work but the other problem is that the studio next door to me has a super comfy futon. It sucks you in and then it is like a time warp. Next time you know 2 maybe 3 hours have gone by! It also has the power to make you seem lost to anyone who is trying to find you. Yesterday everyone was trying to find me since I wasn’t picking up my phone (I had like 20 missed calls) and really everyone I promise I was just sitting on the futon, doing nothing but talking to Tim.
Later today I’m off to New York. I’m out of here for the next few days! Hooray, a mini vacation! Love and kisses to all that need it, I’m off to have an adventure.
Side-note: I’ve cut my hair. Not a big deal I guess but I’ve found a new “energy” with the change. I hope that that energy and excitement follows me to New York. It’s really short and I love it, I don’t know why more people don’t have short hair. (If I remember I’ll post pictures later.)
I feel like I’m about to silently break, but I’m not allowed…. I appear to be far too strong for that but in reality I’m about to cry.
A friend of mine told me I am scared of commitment, mainly because I’ve been goofing around about how romantic relationships are a joke. I don’t really know why half the people I know are in them because all they do is whine. Part of me wants to believe in what I’m saying. Why be with someone that makes you unhappy? But then I feel like I can’t believe what I’m saying because I have a very one-sided view on relationships. The ones I’ve been in were strange. The few times I was completely happy I ended up being devastated in the end and the other relationships I was completely unhappy for a large chuck of the time. That’s why I’ve been only going on first dates lately. They’re nice, they can’t be serious it is the first time I’m meeting that person. They don’t know my flaws or even what makes me tick. Maybe I am a *little* scared of commitment, but I’m just going to tell myself that I’m being responsible.
