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So I’ve just had my first grad school crit. I wasn’t torn down like my nightmares, nor was I told that I was the best flipping artist out there and to shed my glorious light of knowledge upon the world. It was actually painless but boring. I was told a lot of … stuff… that went in one ear into my notebook and quickly forgotten. I’m sitting here in front of my piece actually trying to figure out what the fuck just happened and where to go now.
So the piece that I installed for the crit was a (in less glamorous terms) a faux wall that was stuffed with LEDs that I drilled holes into and filled with glass test tubes. The test tubes were partially filled with 1mm glass beads and arranged like star burst or mould growth.
Don’t ask me what it is/was about because I really don’t know. I mean there was a time that it was about my OCD and repetition of form/materials/studio practice but now I don’t know. The piece fell flat on its face while trying to chase the ice cream truck.
Some of the good things about it though was that it forced me to do something VERY different from what I normally do. Some of the bad things is that it was still born, fell flat, and didn’t take a stand on anything. I knew all these things the moment the piece was finished but I didn’t have much choice with the crit since I finished it Saturday night and it needed to be done by Sunday afternoon for review.
It was a good try at least… maybe. I know that I can do better. I just have to figure out what I need to say to the viewer which is really hard since I don’t like tolding to strangers.
So I’ve been at Cranbrook for a little over a month now and the hype of “HOLY COW I MADE IT IN!” is wearing thin. I think I had really high repectations. That I would walk in and be told how to make my art better. I know that I am not paying for that, but fuck a girl can dream. I’m still totally geeked to be here, I’m just feeling really lost.
